"Renee showed up in this world full of curiosity and a passionate interest in the truth.
Not the one you say she should be, not the one that necessarily creates personal
connection and certainly not the one that says there is one way to live ... "
Mother - Everywhere
From the beginning
A child of a conservative and fundamentalist family, a community of similar beliefs and an
environment where violence appeared "normal".
Renee delivered herself from the throws of this "reality" and dedicated her life to be in
this world absent of wounding, shame, or desperation.
One of the creative ways she heals herself is to share her most vulnerable moments of healing
which naturally validates others human experiences.
Where we are now
Renee delivers her spoken word with transformation in mind.
All of her pieces are raw, exposing and relatable while encouraging us to move through
the pain, fear, rage and move into a lighter side of life.
A child of a conservative and fundamentalist family, a community of similar beliefs and an
environment where violence appeared "normal".
Renee delivered herself from the throws of this "reality" and dedicated her life to be in
this world absent of wounding, shame, or desperation.
One of the creative ways she heals herself is to share her most vulnerable moments of healing
which naturally validates others human experiences.
Where we are now
Renee delivers her spoken word with transformation in mind.
All of her pieces are raw, exposing and relatable while encouraging us to move through
the pain, fear, rage and move into a lighter side of life.
Renee is a beam of light first, a human navigator, a mother, women, lover, servant of the holy spirit, grandmother, neighbor, friend, concierge, in any given moment, a volunteer, contributor, instigator, incubator, investigator, objectioner, and depending on the moment of citation, her roles and participation shifts on a dime.
AN ATYPICAL CHILD
Often described as an "imaginative" child, Renee tried to fit into "social norms" and conform to what made other people comfortable even though it went against her deepest heart-knowing of what was "right" for her.
As a young child, Renee had a keen sense of the deeper meanings in conversation. While listening to people talk, she heard two voices; the human voice that everyone hears, and her heart-voice, the vulnerable messages that come through without conscious knowledge.
She was innately and secretly attracted to Native American traditions, the truth of our history and the mystic arts. She would sneak books, not accepted by her community into her room and read them late at night.
She began meditating in the third grade with no direction or knowledge of what meditation actually was.
This was the beginning of feeling normal and feeling like her most authentic self.
Always creating and expressing her ideas of life, in fourth grade, Renee wrote,
produced and performed a play for the first grade classes during recess.
In grade school and middle school, she spent much of her time participating in track, basketball, flag football, (when they let the girls play), volleyball, and softball.
Renee played the flugel horn in band, and belonged to the forensics team and drama club.
WILD TEENS
As a young sophomore, her inability to cope with reality took a swift turn to drug and alcohol use and she
ran away repeatedly. At the age of 15, she was pregnant, living on the street and attached to a man nine
years her senior who drank excessively and became violent when he drank, on a regular basis.
Married at 16, domestic violence, 911 calls, a second child, unemployment, evictions, and divorced at 18.
Renee’s perceptions of value and purpose shifted drastically at the age of 18 when she was introduced to counseling, group therapy and various 12 step self-help programs where she discovered the meaning of choice.
It was not her destiny to be drunk, fat, beat up and unhappy.
With two small children in tow, she made her move out of hell and has never turned back.
A NON-TRADITIONAL CAREER CHOICE
Through her strong desire to restore balance, her warrior nature and two children to support, Renee entered
law enforcement in 1990. As an officer, she used her personal experience to hone valuable skills in conflict resolution and above all else, employed her instincts to intuitively know what action was needed to deliver effective solutions to power conflicts in the community. In 1996 she was injured on duty and subsequently retired.
RETURNING TO HER AUTHENTIC SELF
Prompted by this abrupt life change, Renee returned to school and studied Massage Therapy, Energy Arts and Natural Healing Therapies. In the first weeks of school, she was introduced to hands-on healing. Within a few moments of her laying hands, the client’s on the table began to rock.
When this happened, Renee heard a confident and steady voice inside telling her to raise her hands off of the body. She did, and the body kept rocking. Other students in the class saw this, and she responded with a reassuring, "It is ok," and continued to move her hands where she was directed by this soft voice inside of her.
In this moment, Renee felt a familiar door open, a door of remembering,,,,everything.
From that moment, she continues to listen to this voice which directs her & brings clarity for herself & others.
With 30 plus years of self exploration and professional experiences, Renee has a fierce dedication to
empowered life skills that support people returning to their most brilliant selves.
Often described as an "imaginative" child, Renee tried to fit into "social norms" and conform to what made other people comfortable even though it went against her deepest heart-knowing of what was "right" for her.
As a young child, Renee had a keen sense of the deeper meanings in conversation. While listening to people talk, she heard two voices; the human voice that everyone hears, and her heart-voice, the vulnerable messages that come through without conscious knowledge.
She was innately and secretly attracted to Native American traditions, the truth of our history and the mystic arts. She would sneak books, not accepted by her community into her room and read them late at night.
She began meditating in the third grade with no direction or knowledge of what meditation actually was.
This was the beginning of feeling normal and feeling like her most authentic self.
Always creating and expressing her ideas of life, in fourth grade, Renee wrote,
produced and performed a play for the first grade classes during recess.
In grade school and middle school, she spent much of her time participating in track, basketball, flag football, (when they let the girls play), volleyball, and softball.
Renee played the flugel horn in band, and belonged to the forensics team and drama club.
WILD TEENS
As a young sophomore, her inability to cope with reality took a swift turn to drug and alcohol use and she
ran away repeatedly. At the age of 15, she was pregnant, living on the street and attached to a man nine
years her senior who drank excessively and became violent when he drank, on a regular basis.
Married at 16, domestic violence, 911 calls, a second child, unemployment, evictions, and divorced at 18.
Renee’s perceptions of value and purpose shifted drastically at the age of 18 when she was introduced to counseling, group therapy and various 12 step self-help programs where she discovered the meaning of choice.
It was not her destiny to be drunk, fat, beat up and unhappy.
With two small children in tow, she made her move out of hell and has never turned back.
A NON-TRADITIONAL CAREER CHOICE
Through her strong desire to restore balance, her warrior nature and two children to support, Renee entered
law enforcement in 1990. As an officer, she used her personal experience to hone valuable skills in conflict resolution and above all else, employed her instincts to intuitively know what action was needed to deliver effective solutions to power conflicts in the community. In 1996 she was injured on duty and subsequently retired.
RETURNING TO HER AUTHENTIC SELF
Prompted by this abrupt life change, Renee returned to school and studied Massage Therapy, Energy Arts and Natural Healing Therapies. In the first weeks of school, she was introduced to hands-on healing. Within a few moments of her laying hands, the client’s on the table began to rock.
When this happened, Renee heard a confident and steady voice inside telling her to raise her hands off of the body. She did, and the body kept rocking. Other students in the class saw this, and she responded with a reassuring, "It is ok," and continued to move her hands where she was directed by this soft voice inside of her.
In this moment, Renee felt a familiar door open, a door of remembering,,,,everything.
From that moment, she continues to listen to this voice which directs her & brings clarity for herself & others.
With 30 plus years of self exploration and professional experiences, Renee has a fierce dedication to
empowered life skills that support people returning to their most brilliant selves.
LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME
that history, life experiences, formal education, or a title, may or may not qualify me as an expert or guarantee I am good at my job. The uniform may not protect. A position or status may or may not teach us what we think we need to learn.
THE TRUTH IS
I've seen a few things, heard a few more, possibly learned a few things along the way.
If you can relate to what I deliver, you feel validated and supported, well, then,
we belong together for a time or two. Jump in, enjoy, be safe, and receive.
that history, life experiences, formal education, or a title, may or may not qualify me as an expert or guarantee I am good at my job. The uniform may not protect. A position or status may or may not teach us what we think we need to learn.
THE TRUTH IS
I've seen a few things, heard a few more, possibly learned a few things along the way.
If you can relate to what I deliver, you feel validated and supported, well, then,
we belong together for a time or two. Jump in, enjoy, be safe, and receive.
"I have been witness to the recovery of habitual mental slaughter, self loathing practices and destructive life choices. As we work beyond the obvious, together, we discover what is not
working and most important what to do about it." Madame Renee Beese
PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCES
- Induction & study to conservative religious concepts & beliefs 1965-1981
- Public Speaker 1983 - present, Intimate groups & large audiences addressing addiction, domestic violence, DARE instructor, teacher of energy arts, keynote speaker of empowerment topics for schools, corporate & in character as Gramma Be
- Addiction / Co-Dependence Training 1983, self help groups focus on clean living in body, mind & soul, co-dependence and child trauma. 25 years participation in Al anon
- Mastery of Choice & Intent 1984 to present, a deep commitment to clear & resolve mental, emotional/ physical abuse and imprint trauma in her life & as a practitioner
- Study of Course In Miracles 1984 to present
- Nurse Assistant 1988-1990, dual diagnosed mental illness & drug addiction secure unit, Winnebago Mental Institute, AODA, security and activities
- Law Enforcement Officer 1990-96, city patrol specializing in child abuse cases and sexual assault. Three years teaching DARE.
- Massage Therapy - National Certification for Massage/ Bodywork - 1996 -2008
- Herbology/ Kinesiology/ Reflex Point Assessment/ Medical Intuitive/ Natural Health Practitioner - herbal remedy intense study 1996-2000. Natural Healing Consultant & Practitioner began 1998. Mentor, study & practice with Naturopathic Doctor PhD Vibrational Medicine, advanced Kinesiology, Reflex Point Assessment
- Bach Flower Essence, Essential Oils, Cranial Sacral Therapy - since 1996
- Clearing Imprints of Abuse/ Trauma - study and practice since 1998
- Reiki master & Teacher 1999 -2004
- Toltec/ Shamanic/ Native Traditions & Intensive Energetic Transformation 2004 -2010 with Deborah Lord M.A., a direct student of Don Miguel Ruiz
- La Stone Massage Practitioner & Teacher 2004 -2014 pain & trauma release